1.20.2009

biding my time

So, I'm taking a little time off work. I just need to reflect and regroup. I let Christy (my seamstress) go because it wasn't working out. I think she needs to start her own business so she can do work that is more creative. Right now I'm not going to think about hiring anyone else until I find out if we're moving or not. Next Monday is when we find out! Then I can get on with my life and figure out what's next for me. Don't worry, I'm not quitting Wiksten.

What I'm going to focus on for the next week is working on the house (which might need to be either sold or rented in a few months) and making some clothes for myself. Since I've gained weight most of my clothes are too small, but I still need to look cute, right? Besides working out, last week I ate really healthy (in other words, no con queso), and I dropped a couple of pounds. Yay! But I still need some new clothes. I like to set goals for myself, so I've planned a little something special for Valentine's Day. I made surprise reservations for me and Joe to eat at a super awesome new restaurant that night. I want to look really beautiful for him, so I'm going to make myself a new dress to wear and try to get a little more in shape physically. And I'm getting a haircut that day. The only problem is that he might have an overnight shift in the emergency room that night. I don't know yet. This year has been really hard on our relationship, and that's why this night is so important to me. I just want to show him how much I love him. But if he has to work we can always do it another day. I'm just really excited to have a fancy date since we don't get to do that much anymore.

Anyways, I ordered the fabric for the dress last night, and hopefully I will have pictures of the finished product up on the blog in a few weeks. I hope I can pull it off. Also, I'm finishing my cardigan tonight! It should be done by now, but I ran out of yarn right when it was time to sew the sleeves on. Argh. Luckily Mindy has the same yarn and has agreed to let me borrow some if I take her out to dinner tonight. Otherwise I would have to order it online and wait for it! No way. I'm really glad I have a sister.

49 comments:

Sandy said...

Sometimes work and busy schedules can just creep up on you like that. Your Valentine's Day sounds like the perfect way to add a little something to these blah January days.
Good Luck with the news on Monday.

cindy : quaint said...

i've been happily married for a long time, and relationships, like most things, have their ups and downs. it's just natural. how about declaring the month of february as a special month of fancy dates, even if they're at home? that way there's not so much pressure on valentine's day to be perfect. you know, like people do with their wedding days. it's just one day in a whole lifetime together. a perfect wedding day doesn't guaranty a great life together.

good luck on monday - hope you get one of your fav cities! sorry to ramble.

K Vinot said...

Hi Jenny! I love your blog. As a knitter, I can't wait to see your sweater. I'm sure it will be fantastic. I hate finishing and seaming a knitted garment! The knitting process is so much fun and then you have to do the tedious work. Best of luck on the city news on Monday.

Anna Allen said...

good luck with all the changes! i myself am getting used to a lot of changes happening already and we're not even through the first month of the new year yet! aghh! but i suppose change is good, just takes a bit of getting used to (at least that's the case with me). ;-) happy sewing!

Anna Allen said...

p.s. i MUCH prefer sewing things for myself than for anyone else. heehehe. you gotta treat yourself every now and then, otherwise you lose interest. at least that's what i've found. :)

erica said...

aw, jenny, i feel for you! it's been a rough year for me, too. i'm glad that you're making all sorts of good plans, though. normally i hate valentine's day, but having a deadline or goal is really constructive. a fancy date in a month's time is so doable.

i'm a little nervous about what's going to happen after the baby, considering how stressful grad school has been on our relationship, and i know that med students have it super rough, too.

it sounds like you're making a lot of progress. i can't believe you're going to find out about the next Monday, i'm crossing my fingers that you both get what you want.

Katherine said...

hang in ther, jenny! it will all work out. at least you look super cute. ;)

miss sophie said...

hi jenny - all the best from new york, treat yourself to some nice downtime, tea, and some fun movies with friends and family! will keep my fingers crossed for you.

amisha said...

jenny, i empathize with your situation so, so much. it is really hard when you don't have any control over where you'll be (with e's job we are in the exact same boat). and 2008 was a hard year over here too. i have my fingers crossed for you two that you'll get the news you want on monday.
and valentine's day plans sound super sweet. i hope you know how beautiful you look every day- and your love for your sweetie comes through so much in your posts.
thinking of you.
xo

martha said...

good luck with all the changes. it is so hard to deal with things when they are up in the air and you don't know where your life is going next, isn't it? can't wait to see the new dress.

pigeon.toed said...

i hope it all works out! i can't wait to see your dress.

Molly said...

Jennie,

I just want to tell you that I think you are stunning, no matter what your weight. I'm sure your husband thinks so, too. Thanks for sharing your work and life with us!

Molly S.

Shannon said...

It sounds like you are on the right track. Sometimes you just need to step back, reflect, and redirect.

emily said...

it's good to have time for reflection. i'm sure the new transition requires this as well.

by the way, are those clark wallabees (shoe or boot style?)? i want some so bad. i'm thinking maybe for my birthday.

don't leave the blog, okay? i really like it!! and let us now where your home is going to be when you find out.

alice said...

Good luck with everything :)

LakeRuby said...

hang in there jenny! I think it's so sweet that you're planning a special night for Valentine's day...joe is a lucky dude!

looking forward to seeing that dress....

LakeRuby said...

hang in there jenny! I think it's so sweet that you're planning a special night for Valentine's day...joe is a lucky dude!

looking forward to seeing that dress....

Anonymous said...

Hey Jenny,

All the nice comments on your blog must help to show you that there's much about you to admire. You seem like such a good, honest and talented person.

I haven't commented on your blog before, but I feel compelled to today because I'm very much in the same space as you right now. At a bit of crossroads I guess.

Hope the news next Monday is happy for you. I don't know anything about those places that you might move to (I live in New Zealand!), but I'll look forward to seeing your pictures of wherever it is you end up. Life through your lens looks very pretty.

Fiona

Lucys Place said...

The wise sage (just kidding!) Jennifer Aniston said in a recent magzine interview 'everything you could ever want is just outside your comfort zone'. It's true. Sometimes you think your life is great and then it changes (seemingly for the worse), but a little later on, you realise it's better than ever.

Have faith, as I can't see you having a life anything less than beautiful.

So hibernate, rest, that's what Winter is for. You'll soon see what great things are in store for you.

Jen Sc said...

hugs to you.
the R&R is much deserved and clearly in need. Self care is incredibly important for all aspects of your health: mental, physical, emotional. Smart girl to take the time to regroup.
I hope you and Joe have a fabulous V-day, even if he is in the ER, he must feel so fortunate to have a woman such as yourself in his life. You have the patience of a saint.
Be well!

ps. i really need to post that dace tunic soon! I'm slacking on my posts! Ugh!

handmadelove said...

I feel excited about your date and dress! Well, if he can't make it that night, don't be too sad alright? I'm sure he loves you the same, and wouldn't bear to leave you alone that night as well : ) But oh well, work duty calls. It's alright, He's working to earn more money, so he can buy you stuff you like :D Hahaha. ( That's what I think ) lol. Anyway, keep posting! ;-)

ButtonsMagee said...

Oh Jenny, I totally know where you are right now. I remember the day we found out where we were moving (ha! to kc). This is such a trying time, and intern year will be worse. Just keep the end goal in sight. You will play such an integral role in how well-balanced he keeps his live during the next four years. Stay positive!

erica-knits said...

Good luck with all your changes. They can be scary. I just got accepted to Grad school in Toronto and I felt the same way about the wait. I was so happy I got in and to such a prestigious school that I cried. Luke (the bf) was in your position, and he was so relieved because Toronto was his top choice. Decisions that are out of your hands can be so straining.
I hope you cry tears of joy when you and Joe find out where you'll be moving. (well, tears aren't necessary, just joy.) :) I cannot wait to see your sweater and your dress. I am positive they will be fabulous and so inspiring. Take care Jenny. Good luck.

mixette said...

Jenny, you are inspiring in so many ways. Love that when you're facing a challenge or feeling not-so-great that you make go ahead and plans and take actions to make things better.

Good thoughts sent your way!!

Kristien said...

Jenny, take care of yourself. I look forward to reading your blog every day, and your beautiful work and attention to detail are a constant inspiration for me. I hope that you have a very special Valentine's Day, whether on the actual date or a belated celebration. About a year ago, my husband was spending a couple of weeks each month out of the country for work, and it was really hard for both of us--we just missed each other so much and the distance frankly sucked. You will get through this rough patch--it seems that you have so much to look forward to. I will echo the other commenters who said Joe must think you are beautiful, no matter what! I know my husband always gives me the most compliments when I am feeling the least confident about my appearance. Hang in there, and know there are a lot of people pulling for you. I am excited to see your new dress!

shim + sons said...

xoxo.

a little break + personal sewing time + special date with Joe = perfect.

Hyena In Petticoats said...

Good luck on Monday Jenny - I really hope you get one of the cities you want.....
I know how you feel, waiting for something to happen - that limbo time before a big change can be a killer... I think taking some time off is a great idea - just make sure you get to do some fun things for yourself, and not just work on the house!

Leah xxx

Stephanie said...

Hi, Jenny -

I'm a regular reader and a not-so-regular commenter ... just wanted to let you know that I will be sending good thoughts in your general direction on Monday. I hope that the best choice comes through! Hang in there - school + crazy schedules + general uncertainty + tight clothes are no fun. When my husband was in grad school, we were both working six or seven days a week on almost opposite schedules, and it was murder. But you do the best you can and leave love notes on the medicine cabinet and have funny dates at odd times and know that it will pass, and it all rolls into that whole what doesn't kill you makes you stronger thing.

Take care.

emily said...

i can definitely relate, miss jenny. I'm glad you're taking time to regroup. i love that picture of you up top. (there are two emilys who comment - that's confusing!)

copperseal said...

you so completely deserve to take time off from pleasing others and to indulge yourself! start on a new slate, go make that sexy wikstenmade dress, go on that hot date and make time for you!!!

and keep me posted dahling i do love these little chats. :P

casey said...

I'm at a crossroads point too right now. Got married, packed up 23 years of my life and moved 900 miles, unpacked and it's kind of like: now what?! You are such a creative, resourceful gal, I'm sure that after some much-deserved r&r (after all, 2008 seems to have been the year of being super-busy for you! :), you'll have found where it is you want to go on your journey. :)

That V-Day date sounds grand. :) My husband got us tickets to a hockey game and I think we're planning on dinner at a nice restaurant too. Honestly, reading your plans about making a pretty dress for your date has gotten me thinking about making something kind of dressy and cute for our V-Day! :) Can't wait to see how that turns out...

Sending you loads of good wishes, Jenny!!!

sixoneseven said...

if you're seaming your sweater with mattress stitch, you can actually get away with using a different yarn for your seams and it won't show up at all on the outside; just make sure it's kind of close to the same weight as your garment yarn.

best wishes for your time off; can't wait to see the dress!

Anonymous said...

Jenny your blog is so lovely and although your are stepping back for a moment things often seem better with a bit of reflection.

Life always seems to have it's tides and quicksands but I hope it will all work out for you and seem better in a little while.

I hope you make some gorgeous clothes for yourself! x

Hurrayic said...

That sounds like a good plan...although waiting to see is always a difficult process.

hannah said...

sometimes biding time is the hardest thing to do. i'm really glad you're making clothes for yourself, but only if you promise to actually wear them! promise!

ute said...

I know exactly how you feel. My husband is a physician too and we have gone through the residency pains as well. What helped me quite a bit is to know that he was doing it for the both of us, that we were -and still are- a team in all of that. I'll cross my fingers for you.

shayna said...

good luck ma'am! i appreciate your honesty...obviously, so many of us can relate to how you're feeling. hang in there!

ps- i'm wearing my first hand-sweater. it's a little snug in the shoulders, the arms a tad too long and the buttonholes are, well...harumph. but i knit it! can't wait to see yours...

Jen said...

Hi Jenny,

A friend of mine forwarded your blog to me last week, and I'm hooked. I'm in much the same situation as you with the whole residency thing, but you're a year ahead of me (my boyfriend and I have to make the list soon). It's nice to know there's someone out there who I can look to for inspiration. Good luck on Monday - I'll be thinking of you.

darling dexter said...

You're so ahead of the game for v-day ... good for you :) I'm sure your hub will appreciate that. I can't believe you're worried about your weight, you're darling! I hope Monday turns out like you hope :)

Alicia P. said...

Ah, so many changes, all at once -- and the collective consciousness of the country/world being so fraught with hope and anxiety only mirroring our own, so-personal snowglobes (everything blowing around). It will settle, of course -- but the unsettledness is always so challenging sometimes. Be good to yourself, sweet girl. And I'll keep my fingers crossed that you come to Portland -- I'm having dinner with a friend from Chicago also interviewing for a residency here -- I hope you both come, because it's wonderful :-).

SASHA said...

reading your blog, i am often bowled over by your honesty, especially your last few posts. it's hard to share things with those closest to us, let alone total strangers. i think we read your blog because, aside from being in awe of your creativity and productivity, it lets us know that despite being across cyber-waves and real oceans, real people are feeling and doing real things, and no one (not even you!) has a perfect and always easy life. good luck with everything, and i can't wait to see your sweater and your dress!

carrie said...

i don't know where i'll be next year either (my boyfriend has applied for writing programs all over the country) we could go back to brooklyn or stay in iowa or anywhere in between...kinda makes me a feel a little off kilter, but having a solid foundation is key. your valentine's day sounds just about perfect--hope your new dress knocks his socks off!

Kait said...

Glad you are finding time to take a breathe and enjoy some creativity. As always I enjoy your blog : )

vanessa.e. said...

hey jenny,

3 years ago my boyfriend got a scholarship to a university in a part of the country I had NO interest in living in. so I stayed behind... until last fall when I finally decided to follow him. everyday I am more and more surprised by what a great decision it was and how happy I am here. who would have thought?? now I know it's different for everyone, but I'm just sayin'. the main thing is we are together and that can really make ANYWHERE fun. good luck. v

Val said...

Hi Jenny,
I like your blog very much,and your taste in fashion is definetely the best I could find ever !
Thank you for everything !

kirsten said...

Oh! Watch out, you can't find queso in Portland. My husband I moved here from Georgia about 6 months ago and are missing queso like crazy. Love, love, love your blog and your work and hopefully having some me-time and me-creation be oh so refreshing.

sew nancy said...

Hi Jenny
I'll cross my fingers for you on Monday and wish for the best.
I'm glad you are taking time to knit yourself sweaters and make a new dress. I think it is important to take breaks and what better time then January.
Your honesty and willingness to open up here on your blog is so courageous and your beauty really shines through.
Take care.

lynne said...

good luck on monday! and enjoy your time away from the computer.

i am sure you will look beautiful in your new dress!

TheSundayBest said...

Courage.