3.20.2012

collection scraps

collection scraps

Hello.  I've been a bit distant, but it occurred to me today that I miss being in this space.  I wasn't planning on blogging at all today because, well, it's a rough week and I'm busy.  I am working on my taxes.  This is the worst time of year for me because I always put it off until the last minute.  Now it's beautiful outside and birds are chirping, and I am loathe to be inside working at a computer on the worst thing ever.  Taxes.  If you run your own business and do your own books I'm sure you totally understand what I'm talking about.  It's a lot of work to do, work that you don't get paid for.  And it's frustrating.  I do like business and math stuff though, so it's got that going for it.  But I think it goes without saying that I like designing better, so I'd rather be doing that.

Ok, tax rant over.  It's a stressful part of life, we've all got to deal with it, whatever.  Which brings me to the main focus.  I was hesitant to post about Seymour's illness because, well let's face it, he's a cat.  Some people hate cats and some people just don't understand having a special bond with a pet.  Although I was raised to dislike cats (by a family full of people allergic to them), when I met Seymour I changed my mind.  Getting my first cat turned me into a full on crazy cat lady.  Since I work at home, I spend all day every day with my cats.  There are days when the only living beings I see are my cats.  Joe is at work ALL THE TIME.  Lately he's been doing these 28 hour shifts in the ICU at the hospital and then coming home the next day to sleep during the day.  These cats keep me company.  They're a big part of my life.  Even imagining anything bad happening to them could easily bring me to tears.

So the worst happened on Wednesday night, and Seymour was rushed to the emergency animal clinic.  The vet put him under anesthesia, catheterized him, and performed an expensive medical procedure.  They put a feeding tube through his neck and kept him at the hospital for a couple of days to monitor him.  I got to bring him home on Friday night, a little earlier than expected because he was being fractious and just wanted to be at home.  It's been so hard to see him suffer.  I cared for him for two days, which was pretty difficult to be honest.  It involved tube feeding and giving medications every few hours (to a very difficult patient), as well as just following him around to make sure he was going to the bathroom.  I didn't get much sleep.  He started doing better, although he mostly hid under the bed the whole time, hating my guts for putting him through all of it.

Yesterday he took a turn for the worse, and I had to take him back to the hospital to have the exact same procedure done again.  He will be at the hospital for another two days, and then I'll resume the home care regimen.  This is all I've been doing lately, and when he's away I'm too distracted/worried to get much work done.  It's been an emotional roller coaster because the vets keep freaking me out by telling me all the diseases that Seymour could have, and then they give me good news, and then they give me bad news again.  The fact that Seymour needed more medical attention yesterday kind of made me lose hope.  We've spent nearly every penny we have on this.  If he has another emergency we will not have the money to cover it.  That's my concern right now.  The worst case scenario is that if he doesn't improve when he comes home this time we will have to put him to sleep.  At this point his kidneys are really damaged, and we don't know if that's temporary.  I spent the entire day yesterday just crying.  Even in public.  I totally lost my sh*t.  At the end of the day I poured myself a whiskey and settled in on the couch with Sophia (thank god for her) to watch one of my favorite movies.

I usually don't share most of the personal stuff that goes on in my life here because this blog is mainly about inspiration and making things and my business.  I've blogged so many pictures of my cats over the years though that I thought it would be appropriate to share that Seymour was ill.  The kindness of your comments made me glad that I did, and that bit of extra support has really helped me get through this.  Thanks so much for that.  I've gotten a couple of incredibly sweet packages in the mail too, and I just can't believe how lucky I am.  The kindness of these gestures just made me cry even more yesterday, but in a good way.  Of course, everything made me cry yesterday.  I do feel a bit patched back together today after having fallen apart at the seams.  I am however sporting some major under eye circles.  It's lovely, let me tell you.

This is becoming an age of one line tweets and Facebook status updates, so if you've made it this far in the post I applaud you!  Usually when I write posts like this I delete about 2/3 of it.  But today I actually felt inspired to post some tiny scraps of fabric from my spring collection.  The collection isn't done yet, and after the events of the past week and my resulting financial situation I'm not sure if it's going to go anywhere at all.  But I have done quite a bit of work on the fabrics and designs, so I thought I could at least share a snippet.

98 comments:

Brigi said...

I have had 2 cats and can understand your worry and stress. They are part of your family! Do not feel bad about sharing these thoughts, they help!

Nina said...

I read it all! So sorry to hear that Seymour's back in hospital. My little cat, Pergie, who was with us for nearly 18 years, was so dear to me that my boyfriend once said he thought our souls had merged in some way. Whenever anything was wrong with her it totally consumed me. It's so hard to see them suffering and not be able to explain why they're having needles stuck in them and that kind of thing, isn't it? Sending good thoughts to Seymour and to you.

Rebekka Seale said...

From a fellow home business owner is overwhelmed by taxes, and cat lover whose cats mean the absolute world to her...I am sending so many prayers your way today <3 I don't understand what you're going through exactly of course, but can easily imagine myself in your situation, and just the thought is incredibly painful.

Heather said...

Oh Jenny! I am sorry. Sending you heartfelt cat-healing wishes from North Carolina.

Samantha said...

I empathize with you 100%. If anything happens to my dog, even something minor, I become so worried and sometimes near panicked.

I'm still thinking good thoughts for Seymour - and for you!

Amanda said...

I'm so so sorry about Seymour. It is just awful to have to watch a pet you love suffer. And the insane vet bills certainly add to the stress of it, don't they? I'll be hoping for the best for Seymour, and keeping you in my thoughts. And the fabrics are lovely!

Anne said...

Hi lovely. Love you and your blog, thanks for sharing. I know it's a tough time and I'm glad you got some sweet packages in the mail.

A few years ago, when I was living in New York but still at the beginning, I had a cat named Puff. She was my best friend - I swear we even looked alike! Actually, she was prettier than me : ) She had kidney failure and I went through a similar experience. When I think about the end of her life it still hurts. But I also have wonderful dreams where we're just hugging sometimes!

Anyway, just a little note to say hang in there dear cat lady. xoxo

Caitlin said...

I completely understand. I had a similar situation happen with my sweet cat and it just happened so fast (she had lymphoma). She was such a big part of my life and then she was gone. I'm so sorry about how worrisome and stressful it is! I hope very much that Seymour will heal & stay in your life for a very long time.

jennifer said...

Loving your scraps!

I'm so sorry Jenny, what a sad thing to go through. Hoping for the best for you guys. xo, j

Rachel said...

Jenny, I'm so sorry that you're going through this with Seymour. Sending good thoughts your way...

Thumbly said...

I think this is your place, and you can write anything you want: I like you and I like what you write. I totally relate: Mirtillo is my cat, my company. I talk to him. He listens to me.

Be strong. Breath a lot. Spring is here: everything will be ok.

Jamie said...

jenny - thank you for sharing... and knowing that all your readers do care about the things that happen in your personal life as well.
i'm sure i am not alone in saying i'm sending lots of positive vibes, and perfectly well wishes - and lots of pain fighting goodness to seymour... what a strong lovely creature.
we're all here alongside you - even if it's simply over the internet!
(and good luck with the taxes - as though you need something FURTHER to stress about!)

xo

Marginamia said...

Oh, Jenny. I'm just so sorry. Our pets are family members. and we love them. My cat saw me through the majority of my adult life, and was my source of comfort, familiarity, and often my only social outlet with each new place and a traveling husband. His illness, some inevitable choices I had to make, and his eventual passing required a real process of grief, like any other loss. My thoughts are with you.

Kim said...

It's so difficult to see a pet go through so much pain, as they look so helpless. My dog also recently had to go under surgery to remove 6 tumors throughout her chest. Hearing her cry whenever she tried to move afterward was the most heartbreaking sound.

Sending my love to you, Seymour, and Joe!

Elaina said...

How awful. As another cat lady with a busy doctor husband, I can only imagine how hard it must be. Please let us know if there is any way to help, I would be happy to donate something towards Seymour's medical bills. And the spring collection looks lovely, as always. Sending good, healing thoughts over!

thistle handmade said...

Thanks, Jenny, for sharing from your heart. Your blog has meant so much to me in the way of creative inspiration, and I count it a pleasure to get to know a bit about the talented gal behind the scenes. So sorry for your pain and trial with dear Seymour. I too, have experienced a difficult and sad time with a beloved furry friend. I know how hard it is. Thinking of you today...
-Katherine in Maine

REBECCA CRALL said...

Jenny, this post was so heartfelt. I totally understand your pain. The hardest thing I have ever gone through is losing an animal. I have lost two dear dogs in my life and it still brings tears to my eyes writing about it. But think about how lucky Seymour is to have such a great owner that loves and cares for him. Not all animals have that. I really hope he takes a turn for the better. All my best.

elena gold said...

Dear Jenny,
I'm so sorry to hear this about your sweet kitty. Grief and worry can be so very draining and heart wrenching. It can feel surreal sometimes to see the world go on around you oblivious, and i think its part of the process to reach out and share your story. It makes perfect sense that Seymour is so important to you, and its moving to see how much love and care you are giving him. Its hard. I am sending you and your kitty lots of love and good thoughts, and I know many others are too.
Elena

LN said...

I am a long time blog stalker (a few years!) and first time commenter. I'm so sorry to hear about Seymour. I completely cried my eyes out when my dog died and it makes sense what you're going through. I'm in between things right now and have been longing for a pet as hubby is gone all day and I am in a new city yet to make good friends. So I resonate with you on being home while hubby is gone, and if I remember correctly you also made a move recently - building a new community takes time. Hang in there!

arounna said...

very sorry about this bad news. I don' t have any pets, but understand the bond that you have. I think it's good to unload in words - I think it helps with the heaviness you must feel. I'm sending seymour lots of love.

k. wang said...

i hope you're doing okay. i wish the best for seymour and i know all of us here do too, even those who may not be "cat people". i'm so sorry you have to go through this mostly alone, and while i know we haven't met in real life, if i was anywhere near iowa i'd be there in a heartbeat with some snacks and tea to at least try to take your mind off things for at least a little while. please know the offer stands indefinitely too, whenever you come around to nyc. in the meantime, my cats and i are all rooting for seymour.

jesse.anne.o said...

I'm so sorry to hear about this and hope for the best. I am a total cat lady and understand what you mean - and I usually just feel bad for people who have no idea what it's like to have a strong bond with an animal.

The worst is when you have to do things that the cat doesn't understand in the name of wellness, but which just stress the cat out. I think that even though they can't understand that in the moment, when they pass they know we did everything we did for them.

Most of my cats are fractious (I just did a vet housecall for 7 cats and they really put the vet and tech through the ringer) and it's so much harder to treat them. I have such a soft spot for under-socialized cats.

Sending good thoughts Seymour's way.

Ella said...

Sending you and Seymour lots if positive, healing thoughts xxx

rachel renner said...

Oh my gosh Jenny, I am so sorry. I am the same way with my cats and I went through a similar thing with my dog a few years ago. I feel so bad for you and Seymour. I really really hope he gets better.

nicole said...

I'm sad to hear that you are having to go through this scary, difficult time! I hope that better times are just around the corner, and that you

Get better quick, little Seymour!

BTW, the scraps are so beautiful. Looks like the making of another gorgeous Wiksten collection. I hope that things get easier on that front too. Hang in there, Jenny! We're all rooting for you!

erica said...

oh goodness, that is really stressful. i hope they can figure out what's going on with seymour and that he doesn't have any more setbacks. these animals really do become family, and having to deal with medical expenses as well as hospitalizations and the pain that they're suffering is so so hard.

on a side note, we're filing US and Canadian taxes and it's a nightmare! i completely sympathize...

CassieMarie said...

Hi Jenny,

Sending good thoughts to you and the lovely Seymour. I can relate exactly to how you are feeling. I teach art history online and also work out of my home studio - my two cats are also my company and my social interaction. When my cat Bobo had a blocked bladder 6 months ago I rushed him to the emergency vet an hour away at 3am and couldn't function for the four days he was at the vet. It was so hard. When he came home I followed him around too - I had such anxiety that he would relapse. It is hard to escape that feeling when you have no one else around all day. Luckily after being sick for the next week or so, Bobo is now doing fine. I hope Seymour has that luck too. I'm not sure what instructions your vet gave you, but ours recommended we give our cats only distilled water (minerals in midwest water can really aggravate cats' bladders) and that we switch to a wet food - we use science diet. If you have any other questions I'd be happy to share my experiences. I'm hoping for the best for your little friend.
-Cassie

Lena said...

i'm sitting here doing my taxes and it's the worst, it made me smile to read that we're trudging through it at the same time.

i'm thinking of you guys and sweet seymour a lot, and sending my prayers that he'll pull through.

xox

debbie said...

It makes me so sad to read this. My kitty went through a very scary (and expensive) ordeal a couple of years ago. I worry about losing her all the time. Seymour is lucky to have someone who loves him as much as you do. Thank you for sharing this.

jen and emily / dD said...

we're sending x's and o's to that sweet cat. we're not even cat people! but we're dog people and people people and all kinds of creature people. and we've been at that heartbreaking place before. take good care, e & j

Caitlin said...

Oh Jenny, that is so difficult and heart wrenching. My animals mean the world to me as well. My thoughts are with you and I hope Seymour bounces back from this.

Karin said...

I'm sorry to hear this, Jenny. I know how special pets can be to their human parents. My thoughts are with you.

Regarding your swatches, I love the colors you are working with!

Amy said...

Jenny, I've been watching your instagram feed and am glad you shared this in depth here, because my heart had been aching for you and Seymour. My dog had leukemia two years ago and we did everything we could, spent all the extra money, and really, that's all you can do, because if you don't it will hurt even more. I will keep you guys in my thoughts and I hope your buddy Seymour feels better. Take care of yourself, too!

P.S. beautiful swatches. taxes suck.

Laura said...

i very recently became a crazy cat lady and my heart goes out to you and your seymour.

also, boo on taxes! can't wait to focus completely on designing again, so i'm with you there.

amy h said...

I'm sorry you are going through a hard time. I hope your kitty is done with the medical troubles.

(And the fabric scraps are really lovely!)

FIFI said...

Hi Jenny,

I hope Seymour comes home soon and well. My two dogs mean the world to me too. I understand, I really do. Our furry friends really are our friends.

You're running short on cash. I have always wanted to buy something from your shop but have never been quick enough. Could I send you cash in exchange for a credit to your shop?

Meg said...

I started tearing up while reading your post. I am hoping for the best with Seymour, I can only imagine how sad I would be if anything bad happened to my dog. I freak out over the littlest things with her and can sympathize with how difficult it must be to go through all the procedures and not knowing, and the expense on top of that! I really hope Seymour (and you!) can pull through this tough time.

kasey said...

Jenny, avid reader and mostly lurker, but my heart completely goes out to you! I have two kitties of my own and unless your a cat person, most people just don't understand the bond between a pet and a human. Our cat Oliver had a blocked bladder a few months ago and I was a mess. Our cats are our babies in a crazy way, whether people get it or not. I am sending good thoughts for Seymour and hope he recovers. Stay strong!

Erika said...

Sending good wishes to you and your beloved cat Seymour. Is there a veterinary teaching hospital that you can take his case should he need more support?

eve said...

jenny,
i have been thinking of you and seymour every day since you first posted about him...
i know this is such a painful time .
i am sending you lots of love,
eve

kristina said...

Thinking of you and Seymour, Jenny, and of Joe (28 hours shift in ICU...) and Sophia. Take lots of care. Everyone is pulling for Seymour.

in dreams said...

ohhh, that is so difficult to go through! as a cat lover (who is allergic+always has been+still loves them!) it's so hard to think of any cat being in pain, for whatever reason. i really hope seymour gets better, but even if things take a turn for the worse, you've been such an awesome friend (and him to you) for so long, i'm sure the happy memories will live on. xoxoxoxo

ps. i'd love to help with the bills, if you need anything...please let me know. :)

Michelle Knight said...

It totally break your heart when they are sick & helpless. I hope Seymour will get better.

smunch said...

Oh my gosh, I feel your pain. I completely understand - my cat's death was the only personal thing I've really ever posted on my blog. He had a urinary blockage and two days of catheterization before having surgery to reroute his urethra. He died 9 months later due to some other unknown illness. And it all cost thousands. But was worth it. Hang in there. I get teared up thinking about it, it's so hard.

Jess said...

Thanks for posting all this Jenny! I've been worried since I saw your Instagram photos and it's good to know what's going on - I understand all too well as I have three cats that I can't even imagine not having around, and I know how nerve wracking it is to be in this position. Thinking good thoughts for Seymour and you!! Keep us updated.

jennifer said...

I'm so sorry, Jenny. You're right, we all have special bonds with our pets and share a closeness with them that many non-pet owners don't often understand. It is HARD when your pet is sick and so scary because they can't communicate to you what's wrong! I'm rooting for Seymour and really hope that he's able to pull through. Stay strong!

Lexie, Little Boat said...

i have been reading your cat tweets, but i cant tweet at you because my account is protected. i have been thinking of you and sending love to seymour. *hugs*

Pretty Mommy said...

I'm so sorry to hear that Seymour is still not doing well! Hang in there lady...I know how stressful and worriesome this must be :(
On a lighter note your fabrics look beautiful!

montmarte said...

Hi Jenny,
I'm so sorry to hear about Seymore's illness. I hope things take a turn for the better. Sending you and Seymore big hugs!

Alessandra said...

I send you a huge hug,
xxx Alessandra

jenna said...

pets are part of the family, at least with me. they deserve as much love as any human. my heart breaks reading this post and knowing how scary and isolating it can be to have an ill pet/family member. thinking strong, healthy thoughts for your sweet seymour and for you too.

Mum+Lark said...

i don't know you & just started to follow you on twitter/blog but i would give you a hug if i could. i have a cat roger who has been my best friend for the past 7 years and it's beyond tough to see them suffer. just continue to give him love until the very end and you will have been a great friend to him.

hayden said...

I hope so much that your Seymour gets better.
I hope you're taking care of yourself, too; the best you can in this situation anyway.

Jade said...

jenny, that sucks! been following your posts on instagram and noticed seymour was quite ill. i hope he recovers speedily. i appreciate your bond with your pets though i have never had one. i think it is beautiful to form an attachment to this creature that never judges and loves unconditionally. it kind of amazes me. wishing you strength and peace through this tough time.

fleur_delicious said...

ah, Jenny, I'm so sorry. You don't have to be a cat person to know that there is a special bond between people and their pets. I am a dog person, but when we adopted our Siamese 8 years ago, I totally fell in love. Someday, I know, it will be our turn to do this, too, and I don't look forward to it. It is very hard to see them suffer, and very hard to say goodbye. But the important thing is that the pet has had a good life with you, that you have shared a special bond.

Good luck with those taxes (bleah), and I hope Seymour can rally. (I tear up just writing this. It's never easy to lose the little furballs; I hope it's not time yet, for you both.) Whatever happens, be gentle with yourself, eh? You have every right to be emotional, you have every right to be sad, and you certainly have every right to thoughtfully share on your own blog what's been going on.

The fabrics are really lovely; I hope you do get to put your spring collection together. I'll be thinking of you and crossing my fingers for poor Mr. S!

Isadora said...

I feel your pain! It's never 'just an animal.' I've gone through horribly painful pet situations, and I sometimes wonder if having a pet is worth the pain. But then I always realize that of course it is - and I never regret any of it. The animals in my life have changed me for the better! Hang in there!

Julie said...

Aw, I am so sorry Jenny. It is so awful to watch your beloved pet suffer. What we went through with Sadie last summer was heart wrenching. You and Seymour are in our thoughts. Much love coming your way from Brooklyn. xo

Pink Polka Dog said...

sorry to hear about Seymour... I know exactly what you're going through. I have a 12yrs old Chihuahua. Last summer, suddenly he became very ill and diagnosed with Granulomatous Meningoencephalitis. Cause unknown. It was very hard for me to be positive at first 2-3 weeks because it took some time for him to recover. But after 7 months my dog is doing very very well. So do not loose your hope! I'll pray for Seymour to get well very very soon! Also take care of yourself too.

rebecca said...

oh, jenny. i'm thinking of you all and seymour especially as the hours pass. sending good hope for strength and relief. cats are very important companions... we call our quinn "curative cat" as she really does snuggle right up when one of us is down. seymour is a special guy and i do hope he pulls through this.

metrode said...

I'm so sorry to hear this. Its so hard to have your pet go through this, its heartbreaking. our little cat fell off our balcony at one point & had to have an amputation. its just very sad, as well as confusing, frustrating & expensive. I know how you feel up to a point. I hope everything works out for you, Seymour & Joe in some way. good luck!

Sofia said...

Oh, I feel very sorry for Seymour! I hope he'll get better! I also have pets and is really sad when something happens to your them. Big hugs for you and your cat!

sarah said...

i really hope seymour pulls through. (it just shows what a loving person you are to care for your cats in this way). i hope brightness will find you + seymour very soon. p.s. your scraps look gorgeous! xo.

Jessica said...

Oh, Jenny! I have read your beautiful blog FOREVER and never written anything, but this post really made my heart go out to you. I completely understand. We had to put our cat down last month and it was the most horrible day of my life. I cried all the time too. One of the difficult parts was that you felt weird telling people about it because you don't know who will really understand how much of a family member a pet can be. I'm so sorry you are going through this (and yes, the cost of it all doesn't help). I will pray that your Seymour will make a full recovery, I really will! Love to you :)

Cheryl said...

So sad to hear about Seymour's condition. I hope he gets beter soon. Had to go through this two years ago with my beloved BeBe. Take care of yourself.

Jocy said...

Thanks for sharing!! I have had cats and dogs all my life and I understand the pain, stress, and emotional roller coaster that ensues when they are sick. I'm so sorry. My heart aches as I read this because my black cat, who is at home in California, while I live in Cambodia was not doing so well during my last visit home during the holidays. I dread, dread, dread news from home about him- and I tear up now just thinking about it. Hang in there. I seek solace in the fact that my pets have all had a really cushy life full of so much love, attention, and fish and goodies cooked just for them! Ha!

ariana said...

I am so sorry that you and Seymour are suffering right now...I have you both in my thoughts and prayers...my heart goes out to you both!!!

Big interwebby hugs

Julia said...

I hope Seymour gets well soon

Nicole said...

I understand exactly how you feel about Seymour. I felt that way about my beloved Bartleby and feel that way about my precious Henry. Your Seymour isn't a cat; he's family.

Sending good thoughts and prayers for Seymour from Henry Cat and I...and for you as well.

welliewalks said...

We had our dog at the emergency pet care 2 weeks ago and it surprised me how upset it made me. It is so difficult to deal with decisions about a pet's life and have to think about money too! My husband is also gone working a lot, so I hear you!! Lots of love to one who brightens my day so often!! :)

Corto Metraje said...

I don't have animals but I can understand you.
I hope he recovers soon.

ingrida said...

I hope Seymour's health improves...

I'm so sorry to hear all that he, and you, have been through this past week...

I have lost my stuff on a few occasions, when our St. Bernard has had medical emergencies... it is completely understandable to lose it... it's amazing how our pets become such an important and meaningful part of our lives...

Julia said...

while i couldn't be farther from a cat person, i love my dog more than words can say and i can't even imagine having to go through something like this. i hope he gets well soon and that you can get some rest and comfort soon enough. sending lots of love to all of you. xo

helen ethel studio said...

I am so sorry to hear of Seymour's illness. I can't imagine the pain you are feeling right now. I am sending hugs and light your way and hoping that Seymour will make a final turn for the better.

Most sincerely,
Amy (a crazy cat and dog lady from Philadelphia)
<3

caroline said...

I think most people can relate to the bond you have with your cats (or dogs) so your emotions are completely understandable, to me at least. I am a nutty cat person too so when reading this makes me sad too. I hope the best for Seymour and glad that you have Sophia to keep you company.

C. said...

I've had pets that I had extremely close bonds with, I understand. I'm so sorry you're going through this with Seymour, and I'm sure even while you think he's hiding under the covers and hating you, he still knows how much he loves you.

Take care. Xo.

mridula said...

I've been watching your work for years on the blog and in your shop and find everything extraordinary. I know what it is to not be able to afford care for an animal.Its been more than twenty years but after one expensive surgery we did not have money for our pet dog did not recover.Maybe more money would have made a difference. We will never know. I mourned for a long time and still think of him, especially of his dependence on us and his trust in us. I am sorry you are in this situation and sorry for Seymout. I hope for a good resolution for you. Just know what you are going through is real and worthwhile part of being human. Don't let it be small in your mind because others make it small. It must be very hard right now.

lauren said...

Jenny,

I'm sorry to hear that this is such a stressful time for you. I'm sending out positive energy for Seymour - and you. Keep your head up and remember to take care of yourself - things have a way of working themselves out. Even if the worst happens, somehow you are going to be okay. But try not to get too caught up in that for now.

Best,
Lauren

Delphine said...

I am totally empathizing with you and your kittycat, from what I know, cats are super tough animals, and hopefully he'll power through!! Lots of love and strength from both me and Ginkgo, my lookalike cat <3

shara said...

I am so sorry to hear Seymour is so sick! I haven't had pets since I was little but I remember crying and crying when my cat got really sick. It just sucks. I hope Seymour has a speedy recovery!

Vanessa Lynn said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your kitty! I had a similar situation happen to mine in high school. (Some jerk ran over just her tail with a car and she wasn't able to go to the bathroom by herself anymore so after being on a catheter and undergoing all kinds of surgery we still had to put her to sleep because she couldn't function on her own. It was incredibly sad.) Pets are definitely part of the family, and I also work from home on my own business, and my corgi keeps me sane while my husband is off working, so I can definitely relate. I hope Seymour gets better!

lisa said...

Jenny, i totally understand, the sadness, worry and stress of the constant medicine. my dog parker got very sick and was in the ICU for 4 days last summer. not only did I almost go broke but I lost my sh*t about it more times than i can count.

talking about it helps and you learn more about yourself and you little guy.

sending lots of happy thoughts you and joe and a little belly rub to seymour.

regardless of what happens to your collection this season, getting back into stuff you love and trying to immerse yourself in that world is helpful. i felt like it made things feel normal if only for a moment.

Hello Lindello said...

Oh Jenny, this broke my heart a little to read. As an avid animal lover and pet owner I know what you're going through and it's really not fun. I hope everything works out for Seymour and you and Joe aren't left to make some really hard decisions.

E. said...

Dear Jenny, I rarely comment on blogs, but now I really felt I had to. Don't apologize for sharing your feelings. It makes you beautiful. I can relate to how you must be feeling now. I've loved and been 'mom' to several cats my whole life and have been in similar situations as you are now. The worry and sadness are really painful, so I wish I could give you a big hug.

XXX E.

Vanessa + Jenny said...

Hi Jenny,
Sending you, Seymour and Joe my best thoughts and prayers. My dog, Gus, is often my only companion at home as well so I know how you feel and how close a bond you develop with your loved pets. Thankyou so much for sharing and I really do hope for the best news for Seymour.

Vanessa

kristen said...

oh i cant even imagine how you feel and I am so so sorry. I hope so much that he gets well and you don't have to deal with all of this again. It is so hard to lose one of your best friends and see them suffer so much. I pray that you guys take a positive turn. I am just so sorry.

little part (jen) said...

looks like you have lots of people rooting for your sweet seymour...and for you too...just sending some more positive energy your way.

sarah said...

I'm so sorry about your sweet friend. I have had cats since I was a little girl, and I know what it's like to lose a pet with whom I've shared a special bond. I had my first cat when I was 6, and I used to believe that he would turn into a prince one day and we would get married. I still think about him frequently to this day, and sometimes when I'm back in my hometown I go by the place where we buried him.

Whatever happens with his illness, I'm sure that you have made Seymour's life comfortable, safe and lovely. And he has obviously made a big impact on your life in return. I wish you and him all the best.

emily said...

Jenny, I've never commented on your blog before, but have been reading for ages. My heart goes out to you in such a difficult time. Sending healing thoughts to you and Seymour. love love love.

L@ura said...

Sending sunshine and prayers for Seymour from Florida <3

hibou said...

Lots of love, Jenny! I'm hoping for the best. As for your collection, I'm sure I'm not the only one who would want to support you in putting it out, if that's your desire in the end. It could be the first Wiksten co-op collection! (Although I'm sure that would add another layer of annoying to tax time, ha!) Maybe it's a crazy thought, but in my head it sounds pretty groovy.

I hope you find some rest and comfort in the coming days. Get better, little Seymour!

ilovesasek said...

I was tearing up reading your post. And know that one day I may have to go through something similar myself. Thanks for sharing, I hope that Seymour makes it through and is healthy again soon.

Our cat goes crazy at the vet so we have to sedate him every time he has an appointment. It's awful. So in some ways I can totally imagine what you're going through... on a much smaller scale though.

Hang in there... oh and your fabrics for the new collection look wonderful. I'm intrigued! I don't comment here much but you're a great inspiration for me. I constantly look forward to seeing what you'll be creating next!

Dawn Tan said...

Can't imagine what you're going through. But all I can say is.. Stay strong and know that no matter what horrible this feels, it will all pass. I lost my best friend to cancer just slightly over a year ago and it felt like my world came crashing down on me. I cried everyday, all the time, just thinking of him made me cry. Even till today, I still tear up a little when I think of him.

But yes, all I'm saying is. no matter how hard this is, know that it will all be alright soon. It was sooooo damn hard when I lost my friend. but things have gotten much better now..

I love your scraps, and you already know how much of a fan I am of your work. I'm pretty sure many of us commenting/reading your blog will support you no matter what. So feel better first, get your happy mojo back, then slowly, it'll all work out : ) Both financially, and physically.

I know it all sounds so vague but yup, trust me, somehow, it will always work out one way or another.. : ) Hang in there! x Sending you a BIG HAPPY SMILE virtual balloon!
Dawn

Lauren said...

Sweet Jenny... I'm so sorry you're going through this stressful time, and that Seymour is sick.

A few thoughts:

- Glad you chose to share and write a longer post about this. For one, you are a fantastic writer! Your normal short entries show this, but in the longer ones it's even more evident. And second, it's cool to get a glimpse of the girl behind the design work.

- Have you talked to your vet about working out a payment plan in the event he needs more procedures done?

It's so hard to make the decision about whether or not the best thing for your friend and pet is to put him to sleep or try to continue with treatment. Please trust yourself... whatever decision you make is going to be the right one for you and Seymour.

Much love to you.

Sharon said...

sending good vibes to Seymour and to you all!!

Julie D. said...

man, i totally understand where you are coming from! my cat, mrs. pickles, has had some serious health problems over the past few years. fortunately, the expensive surgery and procedures happened when we could afford to pay for it. but over the last year, she has had some recurrences of her past issues and it freaks my s**t that we'll have to go through the same surgery again, only this time there's no cash to cover it. i mostly just want her to be happy and well and it makes me so sad when i know she feels bad. so hang in there, and whatever happens is what is supposed to happen. but i hope that seymour feels better soon. :)

Modern Crush said...

We have 3 cats, and I know exactly how you feel. When you spend so much time with them like you do they are a part of your family and your home. We've had 3 surgeries over the last few years and one cat go blind from a fungal infection that almost took his life. Many tears, many dollars and many worries, yes. But that is love my dear, that is love.

xo

julia said...

thank you for the long post - never feel bad about those. long posts always tend be my favorites, i can tell someone sat down and put a lot of thought into what they wanted to say. i just read the above post, but really wanted to still reply a little to this one.

i know how you feel about having a certain special affinity to your pets - they are our co-workers, friends, and family. i love seeing those pictures of your cats on your ironing board, it shows how close you are. it's really hard to watch someone you love go through being sick - you know they are in pain and it's tricky to find the right way to help them (and as a result they usually get mad at you - i know that for certain ;p) in the end i think they know you are just doing it all because you love them. i hope the next few days go smoother for you.

i'm glad you shared a little bit of what you've been working on too - sometimes when i'm down i really have to push myself to work (and a lot of the times i just sit there not working) - but in the end i'm glad i did because it helps me work through the difficult things.

an ordinary girl said...

I am so sorry. I am a long time reader of your blog and am a surgical resident too. (I know all about those crazy ICU hours!) I recently had to put to sleep my dog of 15 years, so i know how hard it can be to say goodbye. They have been though all the ups and downs of life with us! Hope you hang in there!

P.S. Your blog (including your personal snippets) has always been an encouragement to me! :)